Sunday, January 26, 2020
Thursday, January 23, 2020
BROKEN... Again... part 1
I wanted to tell you that you have broken my soul again. I don't really know why do we have to part. I messed up, fucked up the good relationship. I wanted to leave, but I couldn't. And then I must have my freedom. And got it...
We agreed that we should set each other free. I was hurt with what you did, but I was being stubborn because the feeling of you neglected me. And so I reached to the boiling point to say hurtful words, I exploded! I couldn't take it back. I said I don't love you anymore, I'm bored, and I want my freedom back. And damn just like so, I got what I wanted.
I felt so free for a second, but it dawned to me that you were gone. I wanted to take it back, go back, but I was furious of what you did that very night. Pride kept me going on. I realized that maybe we have to part ways.
I love you, but you have to go...
I lost my home, my love, my job, and my life...
Wednesday, January 08, 2020
XLIII
43 years of existence in this planet is so much to be grateful for. There were times that I felt like giving up, but then again as I have seen amongst my friends, life itself should be lived, love, and nourish. If I compare what am I encountering because of my problems and tribulations, these are nothing. I saw my close friend’s fathers passed away, they were so much close, I don’t think I can handle that pain… I saw some friends who were indubitably sick, and a very close friend of mine shocked me with the news that she had cancer! (Thank God she’s cured!) I couldn’t imagine I can handle such pain! Apart from that, a day before my birthday, the mother of my aunt’s closest friend passed… And on the same date of my birthday, a very close relative passed.
So you see, who am I to complain about my life. My problem is a miniscule of what they were experiencing right now. And if I were in their shoes, God forbid, I couldn’t assume I can bear the loss of a love one.
You see my point is, every single thing that happens in our lives was made by the will of the universe. Because everything happens for a reason, and whatever reason is that, is UNKNOWN. I have to remind myself everyday that I should be grateful for my life, and the lives of my beloved-ones. We may not be rich, but we are still healthy and breathing.
Life is a constant change. You may be in deep shit right now, but don’t worry you will be out in time. It is just a cycle that you have to hold on to your will to survive such surge. Numerous people are experiencing sorrow, heartbreaks; pain and misery right now, don’t fret because that too shall pass.
At the moment, I have to go on surviving, living, be worthy, happy, and most importantly, be grateful!
Thank you for being a part of my existence. I love you.
Angel
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