Your image resonates with my soul. I can still hear your voice whispering my name. What went wrong is unbelievable, not to say
unbearable. I saw you and your family. You look very happy and
contented. And I am now very happy for you, you deserved the best because
you are a good person. They say all is fair in love, well that’s what
Stevie Wonder once sang, and yes I believe that it’s a crazy game.
How can someone like me, find
someone who will stay with me, when a part of me is complicated… In misery… I
found you once before, and we were bound to be as one. In the blink of an eye, we found love, I was
happy, contented at the moment… You were
so in love with me, and I can see it through your eyes, but you were impulsive
too! I am so sorry that I wasn’t able to
give what you ultimately want. Even if I
want to, I couldn’t give in. I know if I
gave that part, we will be in true bliss.
But the harmony of my soul seems to wither and gone astray, tormented
& crushed. Part of my inner self was
shouting, she can’t do anything about it, well I don’t exactly know if I live
this life to be hurt over again.
The thing called LOVE… it makes
you, and it breaks you.
It makes you fall in, and fall out.
It makes you happy, then it will
make you sad & down.
It makes you proud, yet it makes
you wretched.
People are born distinctively to each and
everyone around him. But the saddest
part is… I feel so lost and empty. I may
be in ecstasy at some point in my life, but it always redounds to being left
along, drowned in all the misery, all the broken dreams seem to wash to the
shore, and vanishes in thin air. End part is I am always alone. Was my life written like this? Could it get any better?
I am so sorry for all the hurt I caused you. It always has been this way. I couldn't give you more than what you have given me. You deserved what you have right now. May you forever be in a happy relationship.
I am still in the verge of searching for my
peace…
Wishing and waiting that true love will come
along…
Soon…